santa gemita

upcoming 2nd gig

as i've said on my 1st gig last friday, i focused on 'soul'... i may say it was successful coz i felt the response of numerous people after that session. i'm thankful of them all.

now, i'm focusing on "strings".

a string being held at both ends to voice out what is between them... and when a lot of strings are being held, they will harmoniously create a music which could affect a lot of things that surrounds them.

as before, i will always be at my best to surpass that gig... saving every memories!

hope to see you all soon!

balot

doc dindo advised me to have balot frequently... what is balot anyway...

1. a filipino comedian actor
2. an alias to some of bald fat pinoys (still originated from the comedian actor)
3. a cover of anything... from food, books, to a cover of human thing...
4. a currency being used during philippine election...
5. a boiled egg which is almost ready for hatching... just like having an abortion of sort...

=)

be still

just be still...

hidden words

whenever i talk to anyone about my condition, i always insert a funny line or a joke. i just can't help myself being too serious, but deep inside me i feel them, i feel their presence within me.

thanks to you all! same as before, 2005, i'll be fighting for my family and for you guys! a life isn't worth living if not to live for others! =)

officemates

taken before my first chemo

hours before

this is me... leaving the house for my first launch.

God speed to us all!

update on my gig

i'll be having my first session tomorrow, friday, May 22, 2008... first launch... at megamall de los santos clinic around 3 pm =)

i'll be at my best on that time. i'll be concentrating on 'soul'... coz i've 'rock'ed too much in the past.

God speed....

leave out all the rest - linkin park

...when my time comes
forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some
reason to be missed

and don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty
keep me in your memory

leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest...


... forgetting
all the hurt inside
you've learned to hide so well

pretending
someone else can come and save me from myself
i can't be who you are
i can't be who you are...

smile

smile and get a smile back... but remember a smile is not always a gratitude towards the other. =)

clean-up your head

just an hour ago, i took another haircut session, this t at Bruno's Makati. during the session, the barber and i had a small talk regarding life... then he butted in 'sir do you want me to clean up your head?'... at this point i took a loud laugh... he continued '... using a solution to enhance your scalp and all'. =)

hahaha... how great it would be if a barber can clean-up everything 'in' my head.

hard-headed.selfish.bitch

when i woke up, i had a flashback of memories of me being hard-headed selfish bitch.
just yesterday, i did have an encounter again. the crew asked me to wait for my food after i payed the bill. so i wait. while waiting, the next crew besides her called for 3 orders of the same meal i ordered. i just observed on how they will process the orders. the crew at the back of the counter finished packing 3 orders of the meal. i got the attention of another crew and ask her to give me one of the meal. i was surprised when she told me that it is for the other crew's order. on that time, my mind rage with anger and right away had a high tone to tell her that i'm the one who ordered first and that they shouldn't made me wait at the counter if they will not serve my order in a minute. it got the attention of everyone on the line, the crews, and including the manager. the manager stepped on the scene and apologized and gave me the meal. i heard her, when i'm leaving the counter, saying to her crews that they shouldn't ask customer to wait if the order will not be served in a minute. however, when i leave the place, i'm not happy on what i did. i always thought before that being frank on what is right will satisfy me. that's before...

faultless fighter?

always be a 'fighter' to protect what is within...

should we be 'faultless' to open the heaven's door...?

venus, jill, and meanne! thanks a lot! =)

my twisted time stopped

my clock has stopped. time to replace the battery.
how will life be if we just have to replace our battery...



books that i'm currently reading...

out of twenty something

we just came from a birthday party of macks macasinag at greenpark pasig.

throughout the occasion, i relaxed and didn't attempt to hold the microphone for the videoke session. i just look around, see different lives, talk to new faces...

i just observed how the young ones define their lives. their stories at work, at home, their lovelife and all... looking back on what i have had.

if i'll be given a chance to relive my life, i'm thinking to have it the same way how i did it.

oldies but goodies

that's joh with wacky, and doys!

doys! thanks for the post at your site! let's drink to that! =)

i just saw mandy villanueva's blogsite, http://randyvillanueva.wordpress.com/.

everytime i read/look at any of his sites, i savor his thoughts. thanks bro!

once in a while, i'm thinking of posting old pix/memories.. so here are some

that's my mom! i miss you a lot ma!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

my family... kuya oweng, ate jeng, kuya joden, joyce, mom with gi, dad, ate paul, and me!

three generations... dad, me, and beng.

same looks?

freshens you everyday

on the way to office, i dropped by to eat my breakfast at farmers market. i sat at the window side of jollibee, then i saw this sign

"don't forget to have a life" by listerine.

haha.. coming from a sick leave yesterday because of life itself.

today is my birthday. same age with jollibee, huh?

a pic at my workstation with one of my best buds, sie. she can be mean, she can be nice, but she always have true ties...

my officemates gave me scrapbook pages. really really NICE!!! thanks to you all, sie, ivy, june, daints, tina, sherman, and mike d.! ...special thanks to tina!



time to sleep... let's fight and never give-up on anything. better to die fighting...! Go Maroons!!!

slow down relax

i just returned from cubao. i ate at bodhi, a vegetarian fast food stall located at SM food court. below is a sample of the food there. yummy... since i finished eating my dinner a bit earlier before jo1 arrived at cubao, i tell her to meet me at wendy's.. then from there we went to starbucks.
by the way, i have a twisted mind... tic tac tic tac... my mind jumps from one thought to another. then i came across at the coffee table... 'SLOW DOWN RELAX' it says... should i??

here's my last shot of the day. jo1 and me...

starting to end

at last... starting a new blog that i will try to definitely update everyday. i've created blogs before but never succeeded to update it on time. the reason is that my other blogs are not for me... other sides of me.

today is another turning point in my life... or should i say starting to prepare for an ending. 3 years ago was the first one. i have the same case, if not a similar case, with 'da boy' of philippine cinema. last night, i decided to be scheduled for chemotherapy starting on the first friday of june 2008. i am hoping that my body will respond well, coz if not, i will definitely just wait for my time end which will be sooonnn! gemcitabine is the name of the meds. anyway... let's cut that short.

i am married to jo1. a definitely an honest to goodness wife. she came from bicol. i came from rizal, though my parents came from cagayan. you can see some of me at this site http://profiles.friendster.com/mikepagulayan and this one http://www.flickr.com/photos/pidyongdelata.

the pic above has been shot minutes ago... just had my new haircut just last night. you'll have a lot of me or anything/anyone around me when days pass.

i saw an unconditional love last night before having my check-up. my ex-officemate, who i can say can be a film actor because of his looks, was so close and sweet to his partner at the mrt ayala station. his looks and his body is definitely way off from his girl, but he is the one who is so sweet to her. i salute him for that. all men should be like him i told myself. i should have taken a picture of them. wheww...