just a scan

i'm now preparing to go to the clinic for a ctscan.
this will be administered after 2 cycles (4 sessions) of chemo done for the past month.

many have asked, what do i feel? to tell you honestly, i'm just calm. i bet a lie detector for it or any psychologist for that reason.

am i afraid to die? nope. the reason maybe is i don't have any bad feelings to anyone right now and i have loved what i lived for; and i'm still living for it.. maybe for three years i have mastered the art of dying. when you want to let go of something you can't have or shouldn't have, you let yourself die and live for a new one: it maybe a thing or an idea.

now, my body will just be scanned for the growth of gremlins. i'll have the result maybe tomorrow or by wednesday, and then i will prepare for the next exercise.

not the time for oceans and rivers for now, be a water in a lake for me, be still...
this is just a scan

ever ready

just now, i saw the result of the blood tests needed before having my ctscan on Saturday. the result shows a good sign of my liver and kidney enzymes.

late in the afternoon today, dothy and i discussed the herbal medicines of dr. tam and that dothy has a first hand knowledge of the good effect the herbal can give thru her tita. i remembered mabelle and other classmates informing me of other medicines too. currently i'm taking another herbal given by doys and joh.

thanks for the concern, let's have this one at a time.
whatever the result of any exercise, i lift it up to Him...
with Him, i'm ever ready

coincidence?

finally we have disposed our sony h2...

God knows when to be there before you even think about it.
we posted the item for sale months ago and the reason was in exchange of another techy thing.

then early this day... while checking on our bills... i got a text message from someone asking if he can get the cam for a lower price. right-away i jumped from my seat and went to get the camera and had also informed jo1 about it. the reason for selling it now is different...

jo1 and i agreed after minutes of conversation. as i am about to text the buyer, i found out the av cable and usb cable are not working. we didn't use the said features for so long because we were just transferring photos and videos via a card reader. i felt uncomfortable to sell the item. i composed a text message to the buyer about the condition of the item and said a prayer before sending it. he replied and was still eager to buy the item, but asked for a small amount discount. the final price i think is still reasonable for us. so the transaction has pushed thru.

to the buyer and his girlfriend, who he said was the first one who texted me, thank you!!!

waiting

while i'm waiting... here are the things i do... work on my office tasks, play NBA live 2007, sing with my guitar, sing with GoSing app, read books, watch downloaded movies with jo1, chat/call/text with my friends, and of course rest besides Him.

waiting, waiting, waiting...

plans

what i will do next...

1. join an organization
2. teach math or computer subjects for free on my beloved high school alma matter... just like a tutorial class of some sort... (paging Gwen Distrajo) =)
3. keep in touch with my friends, and find old friends
4. touch base with my organization in college
5. have a child of my own =)

rock my world

earlier today, there was a comotion between me and the man living above our unit. though i was playing a music under a normal volume, the man heard it as though it was too loud. the problem with the room of our unit is that there is no other hole that the sound can go through except to pass through the rooms of the units above and below us. so what he did was he played an instrumental music of pure drums and guitars. i heard the music, and it was really too loud... me, as a hard headed bitch, pumped up the volume and played music of Red Hot Chilli Peppers. eventually, we lowered our volumes.

after a couple of hours, i heard a knock on my door. when i opened the door, i saw him standing there. he right away told me that he lives above our unit... he apologized for the said comotion while i also apologized. the funny thing was we ended up liking the story of each other... he told me his life and his job and i told mine... i like his story because he worked as a guitarist of some bands performing in japan and now as a sound engineer... the life he has, meeting different people, living with different type of friends, and other stuffs...

we really wanted to have more time to talk, but we have some work to do... so he said goodbye. we apologized again on each other, shook hands, and he went off...

after 5 minutes there he was again knocking at my door. he gave me a 'cancer killer juice' recipe, we shook hands again, and he said 'rock on!'

God really knows how to rock my world! =)

stranger than fiction

a good movie of 2006... check it out.

starring Will Ferrel.